For a long time i thought that the righteous path i walk on would keep me on track. I would never go toward the things that i've always known to be wrong.
I havent been raised with my eyes closed thinking that everything is black and white, but right now more than ever before i am finding it very very difficult to even see colour. It all seems like a blur. What is wrong and what is right doesnt make sense in some situations. I dont understand why i dont feel the guilt as much as i should. i can understand the consequences i can see the punishment but i just dont believe in them as much as i used to. Is it a juvenile substance in my brain being released to numb my thoughts and actions?? Or have I turned insensitive and am now incapable of being having any ,oral understanding of life??